I find myself in a place of collapse as I write this blog. I feel a bit depressed, while at the same time, stirred up as I’m looking to relocate to southern California. I’m uncomfortable inside of me; not feeling my power.
I experience “collapsing” as a human quality and I believe most of us experience collapsing on some level. For clarity, I’m not talking about a breakdown.
When I say “collapse”, I mean a drop in emotional, physical and mental state of being. To “fold inward” and to “back away” from a singular situation or the world-at-large; all dependent on what the source or issue is that’s coming up from inside. For the most part, I can identify what’s the source or reason when I experience myself collapsing. I can catch myself, but today is different.
Today, I can feel the power in my emotions bubbling up to the surface: fear, inadequacy, a lack of being grounded.
So I head to the beach. I open to the expansiveness. Let the sun, sand and breeze do their thing.
I walk to the water, feel it’s coolness against my skin. I acknowledge what’s inside. I collapse into the next wave. This time, it’s refreshing and uplifting.
Sometimes, all I need to do is dive in.