I find myself in a place of collapse as I write this blog. I feel a bit depressed, while at the same time, stirred up as I’m looking to relocate to southern California. I’m uncomfortable inside of me; not feeling my power.
I experience “collapsing” as a human quality and I believe most of us experience collapsing on some level. For clarity, I’m not talking about a breakdown.
When I say “collapse”, I mean a drop in emotional, physical and mental state of being. To “fold inward” and to “back away” from a singular situation or the world-at-large; all dependent on what the source or issue is that’s coming up from inside. For the most part, I can identify what’s the source or reason when I experience myself collapsing. I can catch myself, but today is different.
Today, I can feel the power in my emotions bubbling up to the surface: fear, inadequacy, a lack of being grounded.
So I head to the beach. I open to the expansiveness. Let the sun, sand and breeze do their thing.
I walk to the water, feel it’s coolness against my skin. I acknowledge what’s inside. I collapse into the next wave. This time, it’s refreshing and uplifting.
Sometimes, all I need to do is dive in.
2 thoughts on “Collapse”
You really make it seem so easy with your presentation but I find this topic to be really something which I think I would never understand. It seems too complicated and extremely broad for me. I’m looking forward for your next post, I’ll try to get the hang of it! bdaccdffdaad
Good morning. Thank you for your comment. Easy, that’s an interesting word. Self-reflection, life, collapse – I don’t have any of them be easy experiences until I can push myself past the fear of what’s there for me. I experience fear as the main “block”. Staring at that which haunts us, respectively, deep inside. I’d like to hear more about your experience. What comes up for you when you get to that place?
Collapse or collapsing, is not a language most of us are familiar with in regards to our lives or at least not in that context. The most recent example is the way people seems to be “collapsing” in response to the elections. So much, folding in on ourselves, regardless of our perspective.
Keep reading and exploring.